God Speaks

You know, we walk through life and sometimes we think we haven't a care in the world, without realizing that things can come crashing down on us in the most crazy ways. We really are walking with blinders on. I live in such a way that I trust everyone, perhaps to my detriment, but all I seem to see is the outside. I live my life in such a way that it seems to be all about the fun my family and I have and nothing deeper. I worry about finances, I worry about tiny health issues, and I worry about every aspect of my kids' lives, when, in fact, I could be the one hurting them more than anyone else could. As I said, I see the outside of people, when in fact, I could be allowing satan in disguise underneath into their lives. I have tried to raise good, God-fearing kids who are sweet and lovable and who just wanna live life and love it, who are loyal and serving, and I think I have. Then I look at myself. I have struggled to be a good Christian and I have fallen short, I make no bones about that, but I am guilty of the kind of naivety that should belong to a child and I wonder sometimes if I was ever meant to be an adult. I truly, truly believe that I have a problem with my brain that gives me lapses in judgment, lapses in memory, and will not let me learn or mature any further than the 5 semesters of college I took. I used to believe I was smart, I thought I was kind, I thought I was fun and that people liked me, yet somehow I get embroiled in things that are beyond my ability to comprehend. Amid all of that, the swirl that is my life right now, God has spoken to me in the form of angels. As I sit here crying my eyes out, they are not tears of sadness or anger, they are tears of joy because even when I feel like the lights have been turned out, God sends a light in the form of friends (angels) just to let me know He is there and that His spirit will take care of me and walk with me through my darkest hours. It doesn't take much if you feel led to say hello to someone, just do it...if you feel led to go see someone, just do it because believe you me, that is all it takes to make someone realize they are not alone and that they have the power with God to cast out satan, to call him out and tell him to leave their house, which is what I am doing right now and will continue to do until he flees from here in fear and run to my Lord for shelter because He will comfort me and watch over me. This verse is one of my favorites, so much so that I put it on my blog so it's the first thing I see when I sign on:

"But as for me, I will sing about your power. I will shout with joy each morning because of your unfailing love. For you have been my refuge, a place of safety in the day of distress. O My strength, to you I sing praises, for you, O God, are my refuge, the God who shows me unfailing love." Psalm 59:16-17